Follow My Other Blog - Jesus in Jewish Holidays

My name is Jeff Swartz, as most know, who have been following this blog.  I have had the wonderful pleasure of putting together a seven week session learning about "Jesus in the Jewish Holiday's".  My church home is Sugarloaf United Methodist Church, and have giving my presentation to two groups so far.  I have had some churches interested in my presentation where I provide an interactive and stimulating conversation about Judaism and how Jesus experienced the common holidays (i.e. High Holidays, Shabbath, Passover, what is a Jew, and how to share Jesus with a Jew.  My classes are very interactive where I create the holiday experience, play videos, and lecture. 

Please contact me if you are interested.  I still have space available in 2010.  You may reach me at my email address Jeff Swartz or leave your information in a comment below.  My other blog is Jesus in Jewish Holidays

Here are some of the requirements
1.  $25 a person/$20 a couple - pays for the food and materials
2.  7 weeks - one night a week - 2 hours a session
3.  You do not need to belong to a church or be affliated with a specific type.
4.  Minimal group of 10 and maximum group of 20.

Building The Church

Nehemiah has been on my mind. I have been praying for the Body of Christ. I see three elements in continually building a healthy Church:

1. Brokenness

2. Intentional Prayer and Fasting - dependence on G-d

3. Plan of Action - vison from G-d to be part of serving His people (you and me).

Intentions

Intention - purpose or attitude toward the effect of one's actions or conduct. (Webster’s Dictionary)

Do you ever have those moments when you have a word, phrase, concept, or basic thought and it will not go away? I am living with this word I can’t get out of my mind but I believe it is a word from the Lord on how I am to conduct my life. I have come down from the Emmaus mountaintop and enjoyed my experience with my fellow believers in Christ. I don’t recall the last time I felt so much love from a Body of Believers, who are there to serve you with NO STRINGS attached. They did everything from making sure my clothes were put away, bed was made, toilets were cleaned, food (lots of it) was prepared, and time to meditate on G-d.
There was one things I know I need to do when I got back from Emmaus and that was to be more intentional with my time, money, and focus. I wanted to put away stupid wasted time and focus on how to mature my family in Christ and keep peace in our house. G-d knows we deal with a lot with a special needs child, a tired wife, and another daughter who is our drama queen. I don’t pray with my children every night before bed but now I do. What has become of this praying?

Let me share a story on what Bad Alice shared with me while I was at work on Saturday:
Abby and Elizabeth were arguing about something and starting to yell at each other. Abby tells Elizabeth, “I’m going to my room to pray to G-d about you”. She runs upstairs and then after a few minutes she comes downstairs and says, “Elizabeth, G-d wanted me to say sorry. I ‘m sorry.” WOW. Karen and I are doing something right. I believe it is being intentional on how you pray with your children, intentional how to talk to your wife, and intentional how to live your life.

What are my intentions these days?
1. To be more like Christ. Remembering Him in all circumstances – “that my face might become like flint . . .” (Isaiah 50.4-9a)
2. Submit to my wife. Live is miserable when there is no peace between husband and wife just like when the Church isn’t intentional in taking G-d’s commandments seriously. (Acts 5)
3. Purpose in Life – I am considering going back into ministry. I am not sure if it will be full-time or part-time but I sense the Lord is calling me to teach. Why question being, “Should I renew my Ordination?” I have had to search my heart on what my intention is to be in ministry, intentionally going before G-d for healing from previous hurts, and intentional pray for wisdom, courage, and timing.

I am not sure what the outcome will be from being intentional. I do know that with my heart condition my intentions are passionate, selfish-less, and promises for a healthier life. I just can’t go wrong with being intentional with being real and Christ-centered.

Renewed in Christ Jesus

I just don't know where to begin on how to describe my weekend other than "renewed, reprioritized (wife, is that a word?), grateful, and stepping on the enemies toes." Also, I would say to those that think I am WIRED - I still do not miss my smartphone.

I went on a spiritual walk this weekend. No, not the kind where you dance around singing Christian songs and fasting all day long but a gathering on broken Christian men looking to experience a renewing of G-d's love and grace.

I was touched by G-d. I went on the Walk of Emmaus with no expectations other than I needed G-d to use me to bless others and receive a blessing. I can't begin to tell you how loved I feel from those that served that weekend. G-d used me to use my spiritual gifts to speak G-d's words to broken men who needed a touch from Heaven. I would say the common used gift G-d has used through me is prophecy, meaning speaking G-d's words straight from His heart, becuase he uses people. In return, my blessing were all the hugs and deep conversations with my spiritual brothers.

I feel different. I feel empowered to put things in right order - family, school, and ministry with G-d being in the center of all I do.

Those that read my blog and do not know Christ as Lord and Savior - G-d is merciful and forgiving more than we will ever understand. G-d truly is the only one who can restore your soul and never go thirsty.

Those that read my blog and know Christ as Lord and Savior - there is no better time to take time to worship Him than now. I highly recommend you consider a three day getaway to Walk to Emmaus.

Blessings in Christ Jesus,

Jeff Swartz

Walk to Emmaus #139

Worship at Sugarloaf United Methodist Church

Sat at the table of Saint Peter

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmziwSNs40Y

Men's Retreat - The Hunting . . .or Praying We Will Go

I don't recall the last time I went on a retreat - let alone a Christian retreat. I think it was in college almost 15 years ago in California. I made a decision this year to take a four days spiritual journey called, Walk to Emmaus.

The agenda is be served by people who love you, read your Bible, eat a lot of food, home you get rest sleeping on a bunkbed, and other planned things nobody will share. I was told that it is a spiritual journey between you and G-d.

As some of you know I have had many experiences with G-d where I pray, listen, and respond. But, I usually have heard G-d the loudest when I am in a crisis or normal daily activities. I wonder what G-d thinks about men going to a place to

Pray

Listen

Waiting for G-d to Answer

Waiting for G-d to Answer

. . . . . .

I guess you know what I am going to talk about in the short blog - do we really think we can force G-d to answer us during a particular time period saying, "Okay G-d, I have 72 hours to hear from you - NOW talk". I always thought G-d decided when and how and we are to stay sensitive to His Voice. No, I am not going with a negative attitude to this event this weekend. I do have an issue where people put G-d in a box and think we can give orders.

I am looking forward to time away from my family (sorry wife but I am looking forward to time away from the house and you). I think the last time my wife and I were apart was last June - not good. I think married couples should have time alone whether it be one or a few days. I am going with little expectations to see what is planned, rest because I am worn out, and spend time learning about other people.

So, my prayer to G-d is this, "G-d, if you want to talk I am available."

I will update my experience after I get back.

Note: Everyone please pray for me - no cell phones allowed.

AMBITION

Meriam Webster defines Ambition as: a desire for activity or exertion





Most of my life has been trying to find the next best thing before my family, close friends, and acquaintances. I guess you can say I am still looking. I did not really complete my degrees before anyone else, do exceptionally well in sports, nor become wealthy before anyone else.

I feel there is a war going on within me that drives me to be better, which to some is great, but to me I am like a bulimic never seeing myself smart enough, good-looking, or have enough money.

I am quite involved at my church and I have to say I get a lot of compliments about my knowledge and wisdom when it comes to G-d and His heavenly things. I am not bragging but why not spend the most time at a place where you feel safe and encouraged to be myself.

I look forward to the day my family looks at me and says, "Well done". Is there something wrong with that ambition?

G-d gave me a vision a few weeks ago and I have put it off. Tomorrow I go to Home Depot and get that measuring ruler to hand by my wall in the bedroom. G-d, forgive my mis-measuring. Help me meaure myself with your thoughts and ambitions you have for my life.

I submit to you.

The Jewish Hat

What is the difference between a Jew wearing a head covering called a Kippah and a Christian wearing a Cross?

A Kippah is a thin, slightly-rounded skullcap traditionally worn at all times by observant Jewish men, and sometimes by both men and women in Conservative and Reform communities. Its use is associated with demonstrating respect and reverence for God.

The purpose of wearing a kippah is not to show everyone he/she is a Jew nor is it a fashion statement. The purpose of wearing one is to remind a Jew that the highest thing from the ground on your body, being your head, should worship G-d. It is a good remind to know G-d is watching.

I remember wearing a kippah when entering the temple and having a sense that G-d is watching and you are entering into a special time with Him. I can only speak for myself but that seems serious.

Christians, have their own reminder, at least it's suppose to be a remind, called a Cross. I believe long ago I asked a few Christians why they wear a Cross and some answered, "It's cool look'n" and others said, "It reminds me of Jesus and since it is worn on a chain it sits closes to my heart." Well, I have to say I hear more of the "Cool look'n" that the later answer. Why pick a Cross image to wear for coolness? For those who do not believe in Christianity why not wear something around your next you believe in? If you believe in music than why not wear a record around your neck or waist. Or if you believe in sex being your idealism than why not wear a sexual symbol over your eyes (I was going to say something else but I will keep this G-rated).

Well Christians or non-religious group, I am opening the floor for responses?

Family - Part II

I thought I was recovering from my overwhelming amount of family stress until my daughters got sick and started throwing up over the weekend with high fevers (don't worry its not the swine flu). We are being careful of Abby and her breathing because when she gets sick and continual coughing it means pneumonia is just around the corner.

Before going to work the toilet stops working. Now, family issues I can somewhat handle but house issues I have no clue (thank G-d for Wikipedia and Youtube). I have to confess that I am no "Honey-dude" when it comes to fixing the house. But, a plumber called at the right time and was able to fix my house. G-d must have known that the only time get quiet time is in my bathroom, sorry for being so personal. I usually end up hiding in that room a lot.

I started school and really enjoying it. I hope to start teaching college next June and then 2 years from now do both elementary (2nd grade) and college (if there is such a difference).

I am starting a new class at my church teaching a course on Judaism. I love talking about myself, how I was raised, the wonderful G-d and relationship He has with Jewish people, and Goyim's who want to learn more about jewish traditions.

Right now I am wishing for a bottle of wine and Battlestar Galactica. Oh yeah, about Battlestar! Does anyone know how to put this picture on a computer desktop so I can get even with BadAlice - my wife.

Family

I have always learned that family comes first and when there are issues you help them out. Of course, only if they are not abusive.
These past few days have been a mess. My wife's oldest brother and wife were hospitalized finding out they have not been take they medicine correct or wrong dose. We were told at 3pm on Thursday that the doctor needs to release them into our hands for 24 by 7 care. My wife and I just laughed since we barely do it with two children, one of them with disabilities. We went to the hospital and got all the information and refused sole ownership of the sickest in-law. We did take my wife's brother home that evening, not getting to bed until 2 a.m. My wife's brother has austim, though not formally diagnosed, but anyone who spends 5 minutes with him can tell. i love him but he can wear me thin.
Sunday night, drinking gluten-free beers, I have taken inventory of two adults lives fiancially, medically, and emotionally and tried to reorganize it so they can make future plans. My brother in-law's wife will have to receive full-time care, if their LTC is good. They barely have any money. I will help them fight the good fight of faith.

I want to give special thanks to Dave Ramsey, God, and my wife. I owe them.

Let Me Count

Karen, BadAlice, Let Me Count How Much I Love You . . .sorry I ran out of fingers, toes, and gray hairs on my head.

 

On this day, 10 years ago, I made a commitment to G-d to be joined in marriage with my wife.  I look back and I have to say I absolutely made the right decision.  I remember when I was 13 years asking G-d to bring me a women He desires for me to have.    Yes, I went through several potentials but never really felt right.  Yes, I have to say you are everything I need.  This is what I needed:

 

1.        Someone to love me for who I am

2.       Someone to inspire, encourage, and comfort me

3.       Someone who is odd and loves looking at life differently

4.       Someone who will let me spiritually lead, give direction, and learn from MOST of my mistakes

5.       Someone who will always be there regardless of what happens in this world (finances, education, location, or illness).  You have proven yourself in this area.

6.       Someone who will speak up for me and help me put my thoughts down on paper.

7.       Someone who will tell me the truth.

8.       Someone who is concerned about looking pretty but not over doing it.

9.       Someone who will take risk with me

10.   Someone who sees marriage as a lifetime commitment you make with G-d.

 

I love you with all my heart and look forward to another decade with you.

 

Jeff's Angels and Demons Story

I am pretty sure every Christian that has been devoted to G-d in worship has felt squeezed from all sides when having to make decisions.

In the past 24 hours I have had both an angel on my shoulder and the devil on the other. The devil trying to distract me from G-d's goodness and causing confusion and angel telling me in a very low voice, "Trust G-d". But, the devil voice was load and got louder throughout the day. Let me explain:

Jeff's 24 hours

1. Monday night went to bed angry with my wife because I wanted her attention and she didn't give it to me. Twitter came first. I woke up the next morning still upset and know I had to resolve my hurt. We made up.

2. Tuesday morning I go into work and ends up I had to go right back home after seeing a nurse at Walgreens - pink eye. I haven't had pink eye for the past 15 years.

3. Also found out I will not be able to attend a friends wedding because of stupid childish games at work. Whatever!

4. Went home to log into my work computer and see a very uncomfortable note from my boss saying I need to come up with an action plan to fix an issue which I think there is foul play and being blamed for it.

5. Finally, to put the icing on the cake is my father calling me and we having a conversation that went like this, "So, Jeff how is school going?" Now, let me give you some background about my education. I was never a smart student in high school and was put on an IEP because I had some academic learning problems, which got corrected after finding a doctor that specialized in educating the inner ear which was causing my learning disabilities. I completed my BA in Theology with a 3.9GPA, BSBA degree with honors, and completed master's level courses in elementary education with high honors. I am 5 classes away from completing my degree in elementary education and felts as though I needed to take a step back and take a detour. I did not have to pay for my undergraduate education but now building up loan debt for my graduate degree which was not sitting well with me. Also, I had a concern about having to quit my current job, and completed my four months of no pay student teaching. Yes, I could get a part-time position and ask for funds to help get by but my family is very important and more so is insurance because our family health is poor. I just found out not too long ago that the company I work for offers a masters level degree in education for teaching at a higher education level. I believe that opened a door to not having to quit my job, keep my benefits, free tuition, and still become a teacher. Eventually, once I completed my degree through my company and have a steady teacher position to go back and pass the State teachers test for elementary education and do both elementary and higher education.

Well, I expressed this idea to my father and he gave me the usual comment that broken my spirit a long time ago and still wounds me, "I should stay with elementary because I am just not smart enough". I remember when I was little he made it very clear I would either have to get lucky or settle for less because I don't have the smarts." I got really angry when he said this and defending myself - I GUESS THAT IS WHAT ANY PERSON WHOULD DO WITH THAT TYPE OF COMMENT. Here is my belief on how a father needs to respond to a his child who changes their minds, "Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it." (Proverbs 22:6) But then again my parents and siblings do not want anything to do with G-d. Well, I have learned to take things from what my parents say with a gran of salt and weight it against what my heavenily father says. BUT IT STILL HURTS! He pointed out a few other things but I stopped the conversation as quickly as possible before it got quite verbal.

6. I asked my wife for comfort after the phone conversation and did not receive it because doesn't understand why I speak my mind with my family. She might be correct to a point but it was not what I wanted. I needed a hug and comforted. I guess in times like these you choose either listen to the angel or the demon.

7. My wife and I go to bed around 11pm. I end up waking up violently around 4am with stomach pains because somehow I ate something at home which was contaminated with wheat - I have celiac disease. I finally went back to sleep around 6:00am for 2 more hours.

This is what I have learned:

1. When there are big decisions to make - pray about it and ask someone who is healthy for guidance.

2. Take note that if the devil is speaking loud it just means your dependency on G-d needs to be heavier. Miracles are on the way.

3. The devil might be wearing a hot red suit and noticeable but doesn't mean you have to pay attention and give in.

4. Abba Father loves you soooooo much and will never, never, never let me down.

5. Worship G-d - sing songs to G-d - it keeps your focus on Christ.

I am still waiting on G-d for direction and have another 3-4 days left to decide on what to do with my education but for right now I only see angels all around me - resting in His arms of peace.

I live you with one of my family songs growing up. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qENjm_EJ0YE

Dry Spell or Quiet Spell

i have heard G-d's voice quiet often in my life. I have felt His hand of correction, love, direction, and discernment in me and through me. When G-d speaks you know it is Him. I long to live in His presence because it is a peace, quietness, and confidence that makes you drop every thought and just listen.
But then there are times of when you wish you could get an answer to a question, questioning him what to say to a friend in need, or simple feel your prayers are more than a bouncing ball continously bouncing around until it can bounce no more. What does a person do who believes G-d is real and alive but silent?
i guess you can say I am in the silent mode right now as I am typing. Here are my three logical steps I take:

1. Slow down life. "Smell the roses", as someone put it.
2. Recall the times G-d has spoken to you in your life - encourage yourself to be patient.
3. Read His Word - the Torah

It's alot easier said then done to do those three things but it works. Trust me!

Well, I am off to smelling roses and slowing down.

Ready for Second Jewish Class

I just finished preparing my editing for my next class at church teaching topic about Judaism. i find it so fascinating how many Christians so interested in in Judaism. Why?

Mezuzah - Is it an Amulet?

A Jewish household is created by the people who live in it--by the way they act, the things they do and don’t do, the beliefs they hold. To a great extent, a Jewish way of life is a portable faith: you can take it with you anywhere you go. This is true for Shabbat, kashrut, Taharat Hamishpachah [family purity laws], daily prayer, and study of Torah.

It is generally accepted that Judaism as a religion is more oriented to holiness of time than holiness of place. There are many occasions we sanctify, but very few places we call holy.

Is that the whole truth? Not at all, for the very place in which we live, our permanent residence, is sanctified. This is achieved through a very concrete ritual, through the mitzvah of mezuzah.

Origins

Mezuzah is of Biblical origin and therefore carries great weight. “And you shall inscribe them on the doorposts (mezuzot) of our house and on your gates” (Deuteronomy 6:9, 11:20). What is to be inscribed? Divine instruction is very clear: “The words that I shall tell you this day”: that you shall love your God, believe only in Him, keep His commandments, and pass all of this on to your children.

Thus, a mezuzah has come to refer also to the parchment, or klaf, on which the verses of the Torah are inscribed (Deuteronomy 6:4-9, 11:13-21). Mezuzah refers as well to the case or container in which the parchment is enclosed. A mezuzah serves two functions: every time you enter or leave, the mezuzah reminds you that you have a covenant with God; second, the mezuzah serves as a symbol to everyone else that this particular dwelling is constituted as a Jewish household, operating by a special set of rules, rituals, and beliefs.

Where and When

A mezuzah should be fixed to the doorpost of every living space in the house, not just the entrance door. Any room that has two doorposts and an overhead lintel requires a mezuzah, so one should check with a rabbi. Bathrooms, closets, laundry room, boiler room, and so forth, however, do not require a mezuzah.

The mezuzah should be put up as soon as possible after moving in, and not later than thirty days. A temporary residence, that is, a place we reside in for less than thirty days, doesn’t require a mezuzah; nor does an office or place of business. A dormitory room, which a student considers a home away from home, should have a mezuzah.

When a family moves it should not remove its mezuzot from the doorpost if its knows that another Jewish family will be moving in subsequently. (If the case is a valuable one, one can substitute another case, but the klaf should remain.) If one knows that a Gentile family is to follow in that place of abode, the mezuzot should be removed, lest they be considered useless and thrown away.

How

The mezuzah is affixed to the right side of the door as one enters a room. In other words, if your door swings open from hallway into bedroom, the mezuzah would be nailed to the right-hand doorpost as your face the bedroom from the hall. This is so no matter whether the doorknob is on the right- or left-hand side. It should be placed at the lower part of the top third of the doorpost, which is generally about eyeball height for a six-foot-tall person. It is affixed at a slant, with the lower part of the container toward you as you face the right doorpost.

A mezuzah contains God’s name and therefore great pains are taken to see that it doesn’t fall. The case must be securely attached at top and bottom rather than hanging by a nail from the top of the mezuzah. If the doorpost is too narrow to affix the mezuzah on a slant, it can be attached vertically, but still must be nailed or glued at top and bottom.

The ritual for affixing a mezuzah is very brief and very simple, especially so considering its enduring nature. Mezuzah in one hand, one recites this blessing:

Barukh ata Adonai Eloheinu melekh ha-olam, asher kiddeshanu be-mitzvotav ve-tzivvanu likboa mezuzah.

Blessed are You, Lord our God, Ruler of the universe, who has sanctified us with His commandments and commanded us to affix a mezuzah.

All those standing about answer “Amen.”

Immediately the mezuzah is nailed or glued to the right doorpost.

That’s it--a thirty-second ritual that lasts the lifetime of tenure in that place….

Is it an Amulet?

One final word about the symbolic status of a mezuzah. The parchment is inscribed on only one side. On its reverse side, only one word appears: Shaddai, one of the names used for God. When the scroll is rolled properly, the “Shaddai” is facing the eye. The letters of “Shaddai,” shin, dalet, yod are also the initials of the phrase shomer daltot yisrael, the Guardian of the doors of Israel.

Partly as a result of this lettering, partly because some people naturally tend toward superstition, the mezuzah sometimes has been accorded the status of amulet, a magical charm. Not only in medieval cultures but even in our day, some would attribute or explain misfortune as linked to the lack of kosher mezuzot.

A mezuzah is not meant to be a protective device, nor lack thereof a source of direct punishment. A mezuzah is a sign and reminder of the Covenant, of our love and commitment and our willingness to create a Jewish household. That, in itself, is sufficient!

 

 

 

Southern Term "Part-Time Christian"

I just learned a new word here in Georgia called, “Part-time Christian”. I have never heard of such a phrase and still trying to Google it to understand the South phrases better.

Waiting. . . . . .Searching . . . . . .Asking people . . . . Found the Answer from a friend.

I think the definition of “part-time Christian” like “part-time job” are similar where a Christian goes to church on a Sunday and during the week they explore ungodly desires. I would define, coming from an A/G denomination, you would be considered a ‘backsliding Christian”. Honestly, I don’t really care for Christian titles that refer to one’s personal relationship to G-d. I believe if you are not right with G-d you decide if G-d is your Creator or You are. I prefer to leave finger-pointing to the Creator since we are only the creation.

I work in a “secular” job where religion is not looked on as a the “bright and shiny star”. Working in a secular place Christianity usually gets the bad rap. We are known for passing judgments and telling people “God’s do’s and don’ts”. I know, being a Christian for many years now, that Christianity has had its negative media, which for some churches has hurt attendance and giving. But, what is the Church(all churches) to do to help change the secular perspective? Is the Church (all churches) handling the negative media head on or just staying in their closets hoping for someone to silence the crowd. I am sad to say, I think the Church needs to be more aggressive in their actions and words to correct people when Christianity is misrepresented. I am not saying Christianity has all the answers but the person who represents the religion does, which in my opinion He should point the finger. Right, I just remembered something He said, “Judge not . . . lest he be judged”.

The Cleaner

I have been watching a television show for the past few weeks called the “The Cleaner”. I think I finally found a show where I am completely naive when it comes to drugs and a good example of a man who is portrayed as a Christian without the weirdness.

"The story is about a real life "extreme interventionist" Warren Boyd, who also co-executive produces the series, "The Cleaner" stars Benjamin Bratt as William Banks, a recovering addict who must balance his unwavering dedication to helping others get clean with an increasingly rocky personal life and the ghosts of his addictions. Banks and his teammates Akani Cuesta (Grace Park) and Arnie Swenton (Esteban Powell) employ an unconventional - and often by any means necessary - approach to getting addicts and those who surround them to realize they've reached rock-bottom and help them begin the process of recovery. With every success and failure, William wrestles with his commitment to his work and his love for his wife Melissa (Amy Price-Francis) and their children through an unusual relationship with God. "

I am a man of prayer and everyone who has been following me knows that prayer brought me to Christ and I have seen prayer change others. I am not a type of person that does well with praying a specific type of method, although I have a few friends that feel closer to G-d when they use a method. For one example of prayer you have the common church ones like “Adoration, Intercession and Petition, Thanksgiving, and Confession”. When I hear Benjamin Bratt praying, I feel a sense of humility, honesty, dependence, and trust between him and G-d. I feel as though he is not afraid to be vulnerable towards G-d. This is probably the first show in a long time where you have real issues, it’s not a REALITY T.V. SHOW, and puts G-d in a good light. Unfortunately, it is not on mainstream television but viewed on A&E. My hats off to the station in bring humanities darkness into the light.
Okay, I can not leave this out since my wife had her manly addictions you can view here: http://badalice.blogspot.com/2009/03/eye-candy-for-mentally-ill.html I have to add my poster wall girl to my side of the bed. She is really HOT.

Jeff's World

I have been so busy I almost forgot about Blogger. I guess I also have to admit that I am very shy when it comes to writing since my grammar is nothing like the Blogs I visit so I tend to shy away from writing. I wish there was some spiritual gift out there where I can write and not worry about grammar or spelling.

What have I been up to lately?
1. Twitter/Facebook - I have been twitter and Facebook happy. I love the idea with Facebook I can find old friends and reconnect with my past. I also use Facebook for my church organization to promote and share what new things we are doing around the globe. Twitter, well I love it because I can rant about anything that comes to mind. The cool thing about twitter is you can only use 140 characters, which is really cool since I am a guy, and like most guys we are limited to a certain amount of words a day. My favorite word being, "whatever".

You can follow me on Twitter at: jewgenie and Facebook at: Jeff Swartz

2. Church Activities - All of the 9 years in Arizona I have not done anything with church activities, teaching, and using of my gifts but not by choice. I felts G-d wanted me to rest and build my family. As most of you know being in Georgia we are attending a wonderful church that reaches out to families in need within our walls and beyond our walls. I am at a place now with family illnesses calming down to reach out to others and see what G-d wants me to accomplish for His glory. I am involved with taking 7 acres of nothing and turning it into a veggie and fruit garden for G-d's people to eat and be nourished. We call it SUMC-God's Garden.
On Monday nights, I am teaching a class called, "Jesus in the Jewish Holidays". The whole idea of presenting this class is to teach fellow believers that following Christ (He being a Jew) means you embrace the culture and spirituality of being Jewish to draw you closer to G-d. My vision is to share Beyond the Walls the importance of Judaism in a life of a Christian, not as a "do's or do nots" but relevance of how Christ is celebrated in the Torah. Finally, I have been blessing with the opportunity to have a 300-400 people Passover next April. I have never organized something this large but have a lot of eager men and women that want to assist. Please be in prayer for me as I prepare for that day.

3. Secular stuff - I am one year away from completing my Master's degree in Education with emphasis on elementary. I hope to teach second grade. My ultimate goal is PhD. in Education. Funny thing is, and many of you know this, I barely passed high school. I guess I am trying to make up for it and considered a late bloomer. I am studying for the State of Georgia teachers exam in my non-free time.

4. Prayer - I am devoted to prayer and believe if I didn't spend time in prayer and meditation I wouldn't be where I am today - successful, thoughtful, and generous. Prayer has always been my passion and spiritual gift because I hear G-d speaking (at least most of the time).

Sorry again for not writing as well as my wife but I try. Did you guys now we are celebrating our 10 year anniversary this coming August. We are going to a monastery to worship G-d and fellowship with each other.

I am now able to blog using my G1 phone. I love life in the easy lane. Sorry I have not blogged in awhile.

Abby Swartz

All of you know how much I love my daughters, both Elizabeth and Abigail. Abigail is a child that has been through so much in such a short time. Here are some things:
1. Born at 6 months with 50 percent chance of living.2. At 28 weeks old, correct age, she has to have a heart valve closed3. At age 1, around New Years Eve she started twitching all over one side of her body every few minutes. We went to the hospital for several days to find out she has epilepsy.4. She started on several medication for epilepsy, which none worked and ended up in the hospital a few times from bad seizures.5. She was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and takes medication daily since birth6. Visited hospital 4-6 times throughout 6 years to cure pneunomia. She now has poor lungs due to being premature. 7. At the age of 7/8 we ended up with one doctor saying we have to do more test on her brain and passed off to a more specialized neurological doctor that helps treat Tuberous Sclerosis Complex.8. Feburary 2008 has brain surgery, showing 5 tubers on her brain, which we were hoping one of them to be removed and help slow down or stop the seizures. The surgery failed because the tuber was on her frontal motor lobe.9. January 2009, we find out she has Benign angiomyolipomas. We have to watch tehm close to see if surgery will be needed.10. She is one year or so behind in school.
Karen and I are blessed to have Abigail, in Hebrew meaning "father's joy". We have a long road ahead of us and more all her diseases there is no cure.
To this day I am amazed by how many people tell Karen and I how much love and smiles happy has.

Eleanor Barclay

Eleanor Barclay, my grandmother, died today. She was 89 years old and lived a long life. I am going to miss her. I have good memories of her. I remember all times we would go out and see a movie, go to Thanksgiving dinner together, and visit her apartment in Los Angeles, CA. She did not having many friends but those she did have loved her.
Like everyone says when someone dies, "I wish I spend more time . . .", is exactly how I feel.

I believe that when a person dies their soul goes to G-d and then G-d judges, all people regardless of religion or spirituality. The question remains, "Does my grandmother intimately know G-d and his saving grace, given freely to all."

I can only hope and pray.

Abby at her Best

Abby has her Xmas outfit on and boy I thought all the 5-7 year old boys where whistling.

Isn't she yummy. Boys she is all mine until she turns 30.

Committment

Finding a healthy relationship is almost impossible in our times. We are so busy thinking about ourselves, what chores are left on our list, and scheduling tomorrow’s activities. But, surprising enough when difficult times happen we look around and either find two scenarios:
1. Friends and Family
2. Where is everyone?
My wife and I have been watching Boston Legal for several seasons now. At the end of each episode you have Alan Shore (James Spander) and Denny Crane (William Shatner) sitting in their patio talking about their relationship with each other regardless of their differences. You can hear them sharing forgiveness, self-reflections, honesty, and openness towards one another. I can’t help to remember the biblical stories of David and Jonathan, Paul and Timothy, John and Jesus, and Mary and Martha how they learned to live and love each other no matter what they faced. When as a church will be begin to surpass the media idea that churches are divided.

A Good Moring Prayer

I wonder if we say this daily in the morning if it would change our attitude on life:

The Poem
Master of the World who was king, before any form was created.
At the time when He made all through His will, then His name was called 'King'.
And after all is gone, He, the Awesome One, will reign alone.
And He was, and He is, and He will be in splendor.
And He is One, and there is no second, to compare to Him or be His equal.
Without beginning, without end, to Him is the power and rulership.
He is my G-d, my living Redeemer, and the Rock of my fate in times of distress.
He is my banner and He is a refuge for me, my portion on the day I cry out,In His hand I entrust my spirit, when I sleep and when I wake.
And my soul shall remain with my body, HaShem is with me and I am not afraid.

Why Jews Pray

Jewish prayer is an aid to developing a meritorious attitude and a commendable way of feeling. Therefore, Jews actively seek reasons to praise G-d's creation. There are Jewish prayers to be said when witnessing a falling star, when hearing the clap of thunder in the clouds, when seeing a rainbow, when noticing the first bud of spring on the branch of a tree, when placing a mezuzah (a decorative box containing portions of the most important Jewish prayer, the Shema) on a doorpost, when sitting in the sukkah at Sukkot, and even when seeing a very tall or extremely short person.
Jewish prayers are usually recited in Hebrew. Yet, they can be recited in any vernacular or local language, whether it is Yiddish, Aramaic, French, English, Spanish, or Russian. Jews believe that G-d understands no matter what language a person employs in prayer. Even silence is sometimes said to be an appropriate Jewish prayer language.
The most important of all Jewish prayers is a prayer called the Shema. Strangely enough, the Shema is a prayer that speaks to the Jewish people, and not to G-d. Its verses instruct the Israelites (the prayer is from the Torah even before the term "Jew" was used for the Jewish people) what they have to do. Here is a part of the Shema prayer:
"Hear, O Israel, the Eternal is our G-d, the Eternal is One. Blessed be G-d's Name and glorious kingdom forever and ever. You shall love the Lord your G-d with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your might. And these words, which I [G-d] teach you this day, shall be upon your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, speaking of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the way, when you lie down and when you rise up. And you shall bind them as a sign upon your hand, and they shall be for a reminder before your eyes. And you shall write them on the doorposts of your house and upon your gates."

If I fail yet one of these small task G-d requires of me, especially, teaching it to my children, I will feel as though life was a waste and self-centered.

Good Timing

About 2 or 3 months ago I applied for a grant through United Healthcare, which is my insurance company to help pay for Abby's medical bills and medicine. I had to fill out a lot of forms and resubmit paperwork a few times to get approved for the requested amount of $3200.00.
TODAY - WE GOT APPROVED.
We will be able to send them all the hospital medical bills dated back to January 2008. This is a big relief since we are starting to get collection calls from hospitals.
G-D is good. So good.

Back to Blogging

There is so much going on in my life and I don't know where to begin. I have to first apologize for not writing for a long time but I actually have been on different websites: www.caring4abby.com and www.caringbridge.org/visit/abbyswartz.

But there is nothing like writing about yourself and what is going on in your head. So, let me list a few things and I hope to start writing more on my wonderful StillJewish Blog.

Jeff's Brain

1. Abby lived through brain surgery with our last follow-up visit today, April 22, 2008. We did not solve the problem and hope the tumor will not grow one day. The good thing is we have only seen a few seizures since February compared to the typical 1-3 a day.

2. Karen had to have another biopsy on her other breast and found out this week it is clear of cancer. They will be watching her closely over the next few years.

3. I am in the process of exiting one graduate school for business and working towards my Master's in Education. I should be done in 15 months.

4. I am almost done with my Georgia Teachers Entrance Exams. G-d, I sure don't remember social studies.

5. I have been growing spiritually in the areas of listening when being a father to Elizabeth. She has taught me a think or 2 in the past few weeks.

6. I am challenging myself to learn a musical instrument this year - I love the sound of the harmonica.

7. I am seeing a lot of spiritual growth in my wife after much prayer - I wonder if she would say the same thing about me?


There are so much more but having just a moment to write I had to reach out to my beloved readers.

Blessings to all,
StillJewish

Love My Wife

Did I ever tell you guys how much I love my wife. I am so lucky (blessed) to have her. I think it was the first kiss (by the way she made the move first) that stole my heart.


You are loved by so many Karen.




You husband and friend,
Jeffy

Abby's New Website

Please visit abby's new website www.caring4abby.com. I might be posting here but I already have 2 other websites to update.

Please pray for Abby's surgery on 2/8 and 2/15.

Update on Abby 01/29/08

Abigail has been sick with a upper respiratory cold with a really bad cough for the past few weeks. Karen took her to the pediatrician last week (who is familiar with TSC) and started her on some medicine. The cough turned into fever and more difficult time breathing. We were providing nebulizer treatments almost every 2 to 3 hours. Last night she reached a fever of almost 102. The thing with Abby she has weak lungs already and usually when in the situation she develops pneumonia or bad bronchitis. The cough finally turned into an infection (bacteria and viral). The doctor told us not to rush to the ER but to try another medicine. He didn’t want her to start a steroid because it would open up other infections and possibly delay her brain surgery. I prayed all night long and in the morning I took her to the pediatrician for a chest X-ray.
The doctor did a chest X-ray and what he saw were some spots on her left lung. He asked if this was something we have seen before and told him, “Yes, with previous X-rays and when she is sick (which of course is the only time we take X-rays).” He asked if I knew if these were tubers or not? In reply, “I don’t know because her Pulminology has never investigated it further.” He is going to schedule a CT-SCAN to find out more after her surgery. So, my phone call when I got home was to FIRE my pulminologist, since we Abby and I saw her two weeks ago.
In summary from TSC Alliance the findings of tubers on the lungs usually only occur when a female hits late 20’s/30’s. There is a small but likely chance it could occur. There are three different types of TSC lung tubers: “The three main pulmonary lesions found in tuberous sclerosis complex (TSC) are lymphangioleiomyomatosis (LAM), multifocal micronodular pneumocyte hyperplasia, and clear cell tumor of the lung.”
Then I get a call from the endocrinologist to find out that her T cells are off and need to come in to see him right way this Friday. Unfortunately, I will have to take half day and miss her birthday party this Saturday. Abby was born with hypothyroidism and been on medication for some time now. We have it checked often. I always in the back of my mind thought she was smaller than usual and should be on some growth hormone. “Tuberous sclerosis complex has been associated though infrequently, with abnormalities in the endocrine tissues. Alterations in thyroid function, in patients with tuberous sclerosis have been reported rarely. We report a patient with tuberous sclerosis complex who presented with hypothyroidism and precocious puberty.
Karen has been sick with the fever all last week. My immune system is fine but got an extra vitamin B shot to help. Elizabeth is coughing.
The sad thing is I am going to miss being the pirate at Abby’s birthday.
P.S. Sorry if there are spelling errors I am too tired to run spell check.

How I Feel About Abby

I want to update everyone that I am working on creating a website for Abby in replace of this one. I like it but it is a little bit limited. I will make a big effort to write more as we get closer to her surgery date. Why?

Answer: It calms my fears.

Somehow Abby found out she is having surgery. She doesn't know where on her body yet. I don't know how she found out. So, far she is taking it okay, though she is beginning to show signs of worry. How do we know this?

Answer: She is waking up more at night time.

I just found out that Abby's eye twitching are minor seizures. So, that means I have to call the doctor tomorrow once again and have him raise the medication.

I have not heard anything back from the stomach doctor regarding the 8 biopsies they took last week. As far as we know there is no signs of cancer but more than average amount of acid. I should know more by Monday.

I find myself more and more uneasy with the thought she is going to have things in her head and a forever scar. PLEASE remember, having TSC is a life long disease. This surgery will hopefully decrease the seizures and brain development. I have read several cases where after a period of time seizures continue. There is just not enough funding and medicine at this point yet where physician have a cure. So, please don't say sweet things to make Karen and I feel better but we can only hold on to G-d and see what happens.

I will keep everyone posted as to when Abby website is up and running. You will find similar features and updated list of items or volunteer time needed during her month of recovery.

Blessings to everyone.

Happy Birthday Abby - 02/09/2008

This world is so unfair. I was expecting to get a date soon for Abby’s surgery and move forward but now – I can’t decide whether to be sad and cry or angry for continually having to go through something major. Abby’s surgery date will be on February 8th, the day right before her birthday and will be discharged on February 18th. I remember EXACTLY 6 years ago when we had to be rushed to the hospital (Karen in a helicopter) because Abby was going to come into this world on February 9th, 3 months early. We are going to need everyone who reads this website to help out in some way. I will make up a list of things shortly and when we get closer to the date.

Karen’s surgery is this Friday. She will be at the Meridian Mark Outpatient surgery from 7am to noon. The surgery will be to fill in some gaps she has in her breast and placement of a nipple.

I want to say thank you to Michelle Robinson who has been very helpful in setting up a fundraiser, Margie who has been doing laundry, other friends and church member for their donation of time and money.

9/30 - Update on Abby

Karen and I have come to a quick decision that the best treatment for Abby is have the brain surgery. She will eventually get to a point where the lesion and scar tissue may, if not already, interfere with her motor skills. We are going to keep everyones help, especially when it comes to emotional support.

The genetic test came back today from the lab and she the TSC deletion showed negative. The test is usually 20 percent correct and Dr. Flamini mentioned the clinical data shows she does have TSC but not the one which was tested. This means the risk for passing TSC on to her children is high. I hope she choosing adoption when she gets older. But, of course, that is her decision and who knows what treatment there will be for her 20 years from now.

The next step is she will have 2 procedures done on October 16th. She will have a renal ultrasound and a functional MRI. She will be with Karen from 12PM to 5PM down at Scottish Rite. We will be meeting with the neurologist in about 5-10 days to schedule the operation.

I have contacted Kerri, the Congregational Caregiver at my church and requested she be the contact person for one of our financial needs right now, Walgreen's gift cards. You may contact her at 770-814-2050 or kerry@sugarloaf.org to see how to make a donation for Abby's medicines.

I have to comment how much it means to me when the prayer pager goes off. I have had it for almost 2 days now and can't wait to go to Costco to buy a big pack of batteries - - 80 pages so far in 2 days.

GOD BLESS EVERYONE OF YOU!!

Thank you for visiting,
Jeff